I know I have the answer. Unfortunately, the solution can't not be described all in this one post.
All pain can be shut on and off. All problems can have infinite roads of possibilities. Finding the right road can give you a quality of life which will lead to your truest desire.
I have walked in my own very real and terrible hell like moments on earth. With a lot of work internally and a whole lot of help, I was able to find that heaven on earth type feeling which not only sustains the internal part of me but the external part as well.
This is what you need to do to be happy... every morning for the rest of your life, you need to ask God to help you on your meditation.
Now what I just wrote sounds simple enough, but the vast entirety of what it all entails is so enormous that I can not explain it all. You need to do three things to make it work.
1. Be consistent 2. Research the meaning of it. 3.Know all the details that surround the happiest moment in your life. It's like a doorway to meeting God half way.
I wish you the best. The words that you wrote on your blog really spoke to my heart. God bless.
I could cry right now...of happiness and relief. I'm a mom of a son that's on the spectrum. Thank you so much for posting this. Now I can understand my son a little bit better. He has meltdowns steady through out the week. I was thinking to make a weighted blanket for my son (using dried chick peas and a old quilt). Now you have inspired me to get right on that project.
He can never explain to me what he goes through and what causes the meltdowns. What you have stated and what I see him go through visuals...it now makes more sense. Thank you, thank you :) :)
God bless you, in fact God bless everyone on the spectrum. In Jesus name. Amen.
I got your post through my facebook link to the Autism Support Network and felt I could somewhat relate. I've been living on my own for a little over a year now and money is a constant stress point for me. Like you I have been losing a lot of sleep over it and even now I'm stressing whether I should take out a loan or not just to buy some things my apartment desperately needs. If you ever feel like sharing stories you're welcome to send me a message.
I am 13 and have aspergers. I cry and shout some times too!!! Mabey we could help each other!!!
If that is a melt down, then I've had tons of those! I thought that happened to everyone.