I read your blog. If I can offer advice, please do what you have to do to continue your education. Although I am almost 52 I do understand the struggles you have faced, in particular in high school. I remember how important it was to fit in, and I never did fit in. When I went to college things got better - you could be a bit eccentric and you could concentrate your studies on things that interest you. For me, graduate school was better yet. You will find th ebetter educated you are, the more control you have over your own life. You have choices. Don't let people rob you of your education just because you are different.
I liked it.Writing down one's thoughts and feelings is better than having them bottled up.What do you find the hardest about AS?