First of all, nothing you are thinking or feeling is shameful or dishonorable so it’s time to reframe how you think about seeking human contact, company, support, connection, and affection. These are basic human needs! Everything you are feeling and talking about is totally normal and relatable so it was a great decision to reach out to your community and COMMUNICATE YOUR FEELINGS. Im dating a man with Aspergers so I’m happy to chat about ways in which you might approach a neurotypical if you have an attraction to them. It’s important to moderate your intensity so that you don’t intimidate, off put, or confuse them. A lot of neurotypicals are not familiar enough with ASD symptoms to be able to empathize or understand why relationships/courtship is challenging for you, so focus on getting to know her as a person and genuinely enjoying your moments together, learning who she is and how SHE experiences the world. You will need this information to communicate smoothly and successfully with her if there is chemistry and the potential for growing closer together. Does that make more sense? Women are tricky because we have to constantly fear men we don’t know well, as some may become predatory or violent if we don’t reciprocate their advances. So keep in mind that, if women act stand offish, it may not be personal, they may just be acting cautious because you communicate/socialize differently and they are trying to protect themselves. So try to approach somewhat slowly, in a friendly and non threatening way. Be patient, be kind, and courteous. Focus on being a good natured, open hearted person and you will attract the same kind of person to you.